(:

Had coffee with her today!~

haha

*sigh*

and i miss her already..

*Brain regains control of keyboard*

But some feelings aren't meant to be blogged for the whole world to see! haha

Respect that woman like mad.. last thing i'd want to do is hurt her tho

disappear

I have this sudden, irrational urge to just..

disappear..

hmmm

Got this off a link form sharon's blog :)
Dont think its..

*At this point Kumar forgets how to spell the word "completely" properly.. is it completly or completely?*
*What the hell is happening? oh my god!! how can that happen, even for a nano second!!!*
WHAT HAVE THEY DONE TO ME!!!

Anyways,
Dont think its comepletely (heh heh :P) accurate..

the Helper

you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO.

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me
Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific. (eh.. this sounds vain eh..)
Share fun times with me.
Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
Let me know that I am important and special to you.
Be gentle if you decide to criticize me. (Bring it On baby! heh.. be4 MJ lah maybe, not now.)

MJ. blood still boils.. have to get over it heh..

In Intimate Relationships
Reassure me that I am interesting to you.
Reassure me often that you love me.
Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.
(This whole part sounds wrong.. insecure heh like every other sentence must include all that jazz.. Siao)

What I Like About Being a Two
being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
being generous, caring, and warm
being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Two
not being able to say no
having low self-esteem (seldom la)
feeling drained from overdoing for others
not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tune in to them
working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings (until i start being taken advantage off.)

Twos as Children Often
are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
are outwardly compliant
are popular or try to be popular with other children
act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention (the objective isnt to get attention damnit..)
are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Twos)

Twos as Parents
are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
are often playful with their children
wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
can become fiercely protective

Yup well, thats about it..

the fact that im blogging shows how little i have to do during my free time :)

429 days to ORD!!

:D

taggers

Shushi: Dont be sad Shush! hows life? having fun only ah! eh, we're supposed to eat dinner or what right? when ah.. long time never see you already! :D

Nat: yeah the courtney love bag looks awesome... whahaha :)- but i cant be ur sugar daddy lah, i got no money.. and no life atm :P ok.. maybe i have some money.. =D

Kha: You're absolutely right kha, and i don't regret anything.. But its the principle of it all lah.. anyways yah, i was there and i couldnt help feeling that way then... but right now, i dont care about the past, i'd rather look forward to ORD.. whahaha :)

Guannie: i miss ya too! whahaha, have fun with hotBunnyBigB at NUS ah.. basket damn lucky eh you all.. i cant believe im looking forward to studying.. meaningful lah, studying hehe.. *sigh*



You guys wanna go watch a movie or what sometime?

:)

Justified

My friend:Where are the councillors? How come their not here?

Me: i dunno, im from Guitar....



MJC's 2nd College Day was today..

To say that i went there emotionless would be a lie.. i Didn't care..

in fact, i was seething inside, and i couldnt exactly say why..

My currently pointless life in NS?

The fact that almost all the random guy teachers i meet ask me why i never go OCS or sispec..?

Or maybe... just maybe it was because i saw all my friends who studied like mad, got 3 or 4 A's and ALL the Leaders from all the CCAs who were there to be recognised for their service.. or for academic excellence or Colours or what not..

But all i saw was dear Jia Yan... and IT.

No other Councillor was there...

Why?

Not even Kha, the President of MJs 2nd Students Council was there.. NO award, nothing for her.. Mar, kur, nat, wan ling!!! Guannie, liane, stuck, sufi, ks, Hilaam.. Qd.. 15 of us.. holy crap.. 15 of us did the job of a normal full sized council..

You mean, we spent our entire JC lives, from 715 in the morning to 930-10 at night in MJ to be spurned by our Wonderful College administration? Sacrificed our STUDIES... COmmitted our heart and Soul for a cause which in the end decides to Condemn us all??

Im Insulted.

I'm ashamed of even remembering that once i had the honour of bracing shit falling from the heavens with 15 of my comrades... without an umbrella.. I'm ashamed of Meridian..

First the PE Dept refuses to recognise us for mere CCA points.. thinking the Teachers planned, and all we did was execute.. Now this.. the final straw.. DO shit ur entire jc lives and then flush us down..

And when i discretely inquire the reason why.. why....

Ms Yong, bless her soul, was clueless..

Mr Yeow says that the councillors were not considered cos we had disciplinary problems... hahahaha. no offence mr yeow, respect you and everything but what did you expect? he hinted at orientation 2 and econs block test (ah girl, u were just doing ur job lah..) and other 'problems' in class... huh? i never did a single tutorial eh..

Remember to do this proposal, do that.. submit the schedule by this time whatever.. and in the end, oh dont forget to study... Push everything on us and still feed us Hypocrisy.. Ms Ng admitted it felt wierd that not a single councillor was there today.. but what could she say? i dont think its the TAs completely tho.. i mean its not their fault there were so few of us to begin with..

I'm beginning to ramble..

one things for sure tho..

Burn in hell MJ.

Burn in hell.

Halim

Halim!!!

DONT GOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOOooOoooo!!!!!!!!!

HILAAAM!!!!!!!!

Arrrggh!!!

*drops dead*

Wish i could have been there last sat with the rest!!

*sigh*

HOw like that, my buddy, my companion, my comrade, FLATMaN!!!!!

Waaaaaagh!

k, this is beggining to sound gay whahaha..

But seriously dey, the mosqiutos there are damn B!g eh, and when the aircon in ur office breaks down remember how hot it is in SIngapore ah..

Keep in touch dey, and thank you for penning down the most memorable days of our lives in MJ, couldnt have said it better meself, just remember (ROJAK... Hot BunnyBB and Hilam haha)

I'll see you there, probably fall out then report sick and come find you.. so let me know where in Brunei you'll be k :)

*sigh* booking in in bout 3 hours..

Can't believe Small Thing is going to Poly! ><

I feel cheated eh.. disappointed, demoralised and miserable all at once.. why!! Argh!

Guilty...? Hmmm...

Could we have done something to help her when we still could have..

*Argh*

Life is full of Compromises..

:(

The only thing i have right now with me is my Guitar.. she'll be there forever.

Pashendale~ Iron Maiden

In a foreign field he lay
Lonely soldier unkown grave
On his dying words he prays
Tell the world of Paschendale

Relive all that he's been through
Last communioun of his soul
Rust your bullets with his tears
Let me tell you 'bout his years

Laying low in a blood filled trench
Kill tim 'til my very own death
On my face I can feel the falling rain
Never see my friends again

In the smoke in the mud and lead
Smell the fear and the feeling of dread
Soon be time to go over the wall
Rapid fire and the end of us all

Whistles, shouts and more gun fire
Lifeless bodies hang on barbed wire
Battlefield nothing but a bloody tomb
Be reunited with my dead friends soon

Many soldiers eighteen years
Drown in mud no more tears
Surely a war no-one can win
Killing time about to begin

Chorus)
Home, far away
From the war, a chance to live again
Home, far away
But the war, no chance to live again

Dodging shrapnel and barbed wire
Running straight at the cannon fire
Running blind as I hold my breath
Say a prayer symphony of death

As we charge the enemy lines
A burst of fire and we go down
I choke a cry but no-one hears...

Theres too much more..

Anguish.

Unreal

Shagged beyond belief...

Haha

Army camps are so depressing i tell you..

Unimaginable unless you've been there and done that i guess..

absolutely no contact with friends, dont get to see my family!!

NO freedom.. its a godamn prison!!

But i aint complaining cos

1. There are people out there worse off than me (its true... its true hehe)

*points at Stuck* :D

2. i have a year and 5 months to ORD!!

*screams*

Where was i? heh

Oh, being trained as a driver! woot!! simple maintainence, change wheels, engine oil etc etc

Can drive anything once im done.. Landrover, 3 Tonners, 5 Tonners you name it!!

My dad's car whahahaha :)

Only worthwhile thing i dont mind suffering for, cos its a skill ya can take back to

The REAL WORLD..

Not some deluded wayang where you fire off 120mm Mortar, dig holes, fill them up again, dig holes, fill them up and dig even more.. (44 shellscrapes for Atec for those unfortunate NS buggers who understand me)

Yup, Lonely man... no Time for anything blah blah blah..

Nothings changed hah..

ORD OH!!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!! i'll walk across the Parade Square flashing my Pink NRIC!!! :)

Walk??? I'll be prancing around lah hahahaha

That day will come! :P

A Levels

So many things to say

SO little time!

NS destroys lives man..

Got Posted to 1 Guards after BMT

the Elite GUARDS.. Espirit De Corps..

The army camp at Bedok there...

Have eczema (wth right...)

Suffered during BMT, said No to being a commander

Absolutely NO responsibility now.. which is good, i can take a break and concentrate on getting out hehe :)

But my skin condition isnt bad enough to be downgraded apparently heh oh well..

Screwed up my A Levels, but managed to get into SMU Social Sciences with a score of

B- Econs (wth!!)

C-Physics ~WTH!!!!!! :(

C-Maths (*sigh*)

A2- GP


Yup well, cant wait to ORD and get out of NS :) like everyone else eh..

Miss all my Friends... Council, Guitar, SJI... its so difficult to keep in contact and meet up if ur a slave in the army, with absolutely no freedom.. Try to chat with friends when i can, but i can still feel us being pulled apart.. haha

I'm not going to let that happen understand or not!!! haha

KK, gotta go back to camp, waste my time calling up ppl who won NDP preview tickets for an entire week..

Take Care in Brunei Halim, gonna miss u bro..

Keep in touch yeah :)

Till later :P